The Push I Needed

I was late for work, as usual.  Ahead of me I could see co-workers entering the building, but I was so far behind them, shouting “hold the door” would have been ridiculous.  I kept huffing along with my bags in tow (Why must I carry so much crap?!).  Suddenly, a head popped out of the door and shouted “RUN!”

Now, I usually don’t run unless I’m being chased.  But something about the way she looked at me made me do it. I ran to the door.  When I got there, all sweaty and out of breath, my co-worker said with a giggle, “I just wanted to get your heart started this morning!”  Well, ok, thank you.   This 5-minute episode not only had me winded (out of shape much?) but it stayed with me all day.  I got up to my office and began the “you’ll never guess what just happened” stories.  I had a good laugh about how ridiculous it was and how crazy it was of my co-worker to TURN BACK, pop her head out and motivate me to get moving.

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So many questions went through my mind the more I reflected on it.  Why did I run and not just wave her off?  What went through her mind right before she yelled?  We hardly know each other!   Was she trying to tell me something?  Did I NEED to get my heart started?  Does she think I’m fat? Am I fat?  OMG, I’m fat.

Later that day, something else happened.  Call it a coincidence.  My work offers wellness programs during lunch hours and it just so happened that today’s program was called “Couch to 5K,” presented by a local running store.  Holy cow!  Was this another sign?  I don’t know, but you can bet your butt that I attended.  I sat and listened to the benefits of running and exercise in a room full of people who looked a lot like me: they were mostly middle-aged, out of shape and short on free-time-in other words, working moms!  The more the trainer talked, the more interested and motivated I became.  But still, I was holding back.

And then, that same day, one of our CTWM bloggers, Tara, reached out and asked if any of us wanted to sign up for a road race together as a CT Working Moms team.  Well, that was it.  The final sign I needed. Without hesitation–or thought–I replied “I’m in.”

I realized that it didn’t matter what made my co-worker do it or why she choose me.  What matters is what I do next.  I’m going to start training for a race.  I’m going sign up for a race with my CT Working Moms and I’m going to finish it.  The hardest part is going to be taking that first step, literally and figuratively.

This is never going to be me.
This is never going to be me.

Like any of us, I’m a busy person.   My life is filled with all the craziness that everyone else’s is.  I can make excuses with the best of them.  But I really want to do this because I need to.  I need to feel good about myself.  I need to feel the confidence that comes with a strong body, one that you’ve earned.  I need to push myself in order to have something to be proud of, something that I’ve put my blood, sweat and tears into.

To accomplish this, I have to start making time for me.  I need to find the time, wherever it’s hiding.  I need to find my voice to ask for the time.  I need to give myself the permission that I deserve this.  I deserve to want to work hard at this and succeed (or fail?).   I have some really great inspiration on my side.

I’m not going to fool myself into thinking that one day this inactive caterpillar of a mom is going to wake up and be the super-healthy, sporty butterfly.  But unless I take that first step, I won’t even come close.  So to my co-worker, I owe you one.  Thanks for getting my heart started.  The rest is up to me.

This is probably more like it.
This is probably more like it.



24 thoughts on “The Push I Needed

  1. Awwwww YEAH! Let’s do this! May the planning commence! I think you’re awesome for your honesty, and especially awesome for challenging yourself publicly. Not easy stuff to do. And thanks for the S/O!

  2. Whooohooo!! I love how you followed the signs ~ this is so exciting! I feel a beautiful journey unfolding, Dear Sister!

  3. Oh this is too funny. I myself sometimes get the urge to exercise. I even bought a treadmill a few months ago. It looks great in my dining room. Luckily it folds up. I haven’t folded it down since I got it. I’m hoping sometime the urge to actually use it will strike me. Oh dear, maybe when school gets out.
    I admire you for taking this big step! Do it one step at a time. Walk a little, run a little when you first start.
    And Kriste…I can’t WAIT to hear the rest of this story! Love you! Aunt Nancy 🙂

    1. Thanks Aunt Nancy. Considering that I look a lot like Phoebe from “Friends” when I run, this should be interesting. I’m not exactly a picture of grace. We, of course, just sold our treadmill last year after wiping off the layer of dust. Oh how I wish I had not done that! But it’s nice out now and I can use that thing they call “fresh air” so I’ve heard.

  4. Good for you!! You can do it and you will feel amazing when you finish and accomplished your goal.
    I hate running but it was one of my bucket list” things to do” I decided to sign up and completed( with a time better than I expected) the Columbia 5K this past October and my next one is the run or dye in July!
    So RUN Kriste RUN! love you xo Stacy

    1. Thanks Stacy! I didn’t know this! Maybe that Run or Dye is in my future too! (And thanks for the “Run Forrest Run!” image in my head now!LOL)

  5. You are awesome Kristi! I downloaded a Couch to 5K app and haven’t gotten up the nerve to start it. My oldest runs Cross Country in the Fall followed by 2 seasons of Track. I have been embarrassed that I can’t keep up to watch him so this is my motivation. I will start tonight! Thank you!!!

    1. Thanks Dawn! I looked up a couple of apps yesterday. There’s a funny one that tells you a Zombie story while you run, so that you’re in a sense running from Zombies! LOL Maybe that’s what it will take to get my butt in gear and running!
      Glad I could motivate you! This post is keeping me honest too! Now I HAVE to get moving because the internet knows about it!

  6. Go Kriste!! That’s great! I am due with my third in a couple weeks and I’m looking forward to getting back into working out after! I’ve just started a new career journey with some amazing nutrition products that might help you in your training as well!! I’d love to share if your interested 🙂

    1. Thanks Jillian! I’m not sure what race we’re supposed to be doing. I’ll leave that up to the “experts!”

  7. I LOVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY KRISTE!! Welcome to the world of running! I will cheer you on through this whole journey!

    1. Thanks! I’ll need all the help I can get. I ran a 5k years ago and started training with a group. Now I think I have to start this by myself. I just have to get started!! (Where do I start!?)

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