My house is lopsided. No, not literally. Don’t get all Leaning Tower of Pisa on me.
Since we have moved into the
new second house it has become abundantly clear that I stink at being a mother. My failings on this front are staring me in the face. Or not, as the case may be.
I have almost no pictures of Kitten in my house. When I was unpacking boxes of family pictures I realized that we have no framed pictures of her. We have a large canvas print of her in the family room with one of Lovey on the opposite wall. There’s also a family portrait from her newborn session hanging in the family room, a picture of Honey’s extended family on the refrigerator (really need to get that bad boy framed), and a picture of Lovey and Kitten-also from the newborn session-on my dresser. That’s it. There are also no pictures in her baby book.
Allow me to explain.
Kitten was about 9 months old when we tried to sell our house the first time. We hadn’t printed out any baby pictures at that point and then had to pack up all family pictures in order to make our house look like no one actually lived there. We were unable to sell our house the first time around but knew that we would try again so the family photos stayed in boxes until just recently when I unpacked them. It was almost like opening a time capsule. All the pictures of Lovey were of her age 2 and younger. Last Christmas we had a photo calendar made for my parents and got an extra for ourselves so those pictures were up to date, but I never printed them out.
Still, I feel like I’ve failed. Lovey enjoys looking through her baby book on a regular basis and often Kitten will ask if she can see hers. Cue the whamp whamp whah sound effect. Now my daughter is 2 1/2 and still has no pictures in her baby book. Just this morning Lovey was happily flipping through her baby book and Kitten was flipping through Going on a Bear Hunt.
I know that a lot of this has to do wit the fact that Kitten is the second child. I’m the second child and my baby book abruptly stops somewhere around 9 months. I get it. I am also a full time working mom which means that there isn’t an overabundance of time to get these types of projects accomplished. I still have a tremendous amount of mommy guilt about this. This is why I’m confessing my mommy foibles. I need to put it out into the world so that all you other mommies will hold me accountable. My email has been bombarding me with coupons to finally get the job done. My goal is that I can finally have a baby book with pictures completed by Christmas. I’ll be sure to report back when I’m done.
Photo of books credit C. Fuss