My little freak-out

Proud of my bump at 20 weeks!               Photo credit genagolas



I think I’m allowed a little freak-out, right?  Sometimes I catch my growing baby bump in the mirror and think, holy crap, what have I gotten myself into? 


Please tell me I’m not alone in this.  Don’t get me wrong, my husband and I had plenty of time to figure out that, yes, we truly, desperately wanted a baby and that, yes, we’re as ready for this as we’re ever going to be.  But seeing my belly grow, mostly not within my own control, and knowing I’m growing a human inside there is a little freaky, no?


Of course, there are the days where I look at my bump and I’m so insanely proud of it, and of myself.  How cool is it, that my body is designed to do this amazing thing, freaky as it may be?  I love showing off my bump by not hiding it behind baggy clothes.  I worked hard to get pregnant, I want to flaunt it now that I’ve got it!  Still, knowing that there’s a little person squirming around inside of me is a little weird.  But I love this little sqirmy baby nonetheless.


I also have a few moments of panic when I realize it won’t be just my husband and me in a few short months.  Gone will be the days when we are able to plan a day around just our own schedules.  Soon, we’ll be at the whims of a newborn.  I’m very much looking forward to family time, but I find myself mourning me-and-hubby time all the same.


I’m positive these won’t be the first parental freak-outs I will have.  There will be bumps and bruises, first days of school and ::gulp:: college.  But let’s cross those bridges when we come to them.  I have enough on my mind already, thankyouverymuch!

8 thoughts on “My little freak-out

  1. I still find myself, on the tough days, wishing I could just get up and go a do what I want to do when I want to do it. But I know that when Nora is older, that time will come back around again, and then I’ll have the best of both…getting to be her mom and gaining some flexibility back.

    The new normal takes adjustment, but I wouldn’t change it for a thing!!

    1. I had forgotten about that, having some “me” time or “us” time once kids reach a certain, more independent age. Phew, thanks! 🙂

  2. First, you look so cuuuuuute!!! Ok, now that that’s over…:) You will have a ‘new normal’ – yes, things will change but, they will also become deeper and more meaningful.

  3. Sooo Normal! I remember being about 6 monthd and freaking out! I was like “Wait thid is a really bad idea, I am totally not ready for this? Who thought I was this rrsponsible”

    Well no turning back lol and once your little one arrives it will all come into place.

  4. COMPLETELY normal! And then the baby will come and you’ll forget that your life was any other way. 🙂 I am feeling those same twinges sometimes now with #2 coming…between feeling insanely excited, I also I feel like D has a real routine, and now it will be disrupted…how will I make good time for both kids…etc. Ah, the emotional joys of pregnancy!

    1. Thank goodness someone else thinks so! 🙂 I know I’m going to love mommyhood but it’s still a scary thought nonetheless!

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